Ephesians 4:29

“Let no corrupt communication proceed out of your mouth, but that which is good to the use of edifying, that it may minister grace upon the hearers.”

I had a really long conversation last night with a family member that I choose to conceal. I didn’t want to share who that person is because I want to protect the person from being an object of gossip. Whenever we have talks like the ones we talked about, I get the sense of relief that I am not the only one who thinks that way~ I’ve thought many times, why is it that every time the topic of our conversation comes out, I find it difficult to stop expressing my disgust about “something”.

In the middle of our conversation, I told the person I was talking to, I really need to ask God for forgiveness about doing this tonight but I can’t help but really say what I say— to protect others from experiencing similar character assassination, comparing, inappropriate commentaries, making others feel less— in others words, I find myself wanting to protect the little ones from the bullies— and by doing that, I kind of had to tell why? Why is it necessary?

Then, the person I was talking to expressed the same horrible experience—- Same people! Same commentaries, same corrupt communication! Then I realized, I wanted to protect so bad but I couldn’t really do that alone! Unless, someone will face the bullies and tell them to STOP!

I did a little of THE FACING the issue head on incident! Instead of being embraced as someone who was hurt but healed by the Lord tremendously—and because of that, I wanted to at least be honest about how I felt then and rebuked the sinful behavior— maybe, there will be an ACKNOWLEDGEMENT and maybe, an APOLOGY—- I again experienced another round of “character assassination”— I responded, God I did what I did. It’s all in YOUR COURT now.

However, despite saying that—- I still feel the need to protect the love ones. I guess I didn’t want them to experience what I had experienced. Yet again, I failed because they already did.

My love ones already felt less, already heard a few “harsh, unnecessary comments”—- and the sad thing, it’s from the same people who wronged me, my mom, my favorite auntie — but never ever apologized for it! Oh yeah, forgiveness doesn’t need an apology—-True! And we can never expect one to change for us—True! I can change for them— True!

The story changes though when we keep changing for them—- and they never did! They kept doing what they think is okay to do, nobody dared to correct, to rebuke, to tell them! And we become disrespectful in the eyes of many when in fact, we only conveyed the hurt and pain that they should not be doing to others. 😭

STOP! That’s wrong! How many more victims? How many more tears? When can I finally see the genuine love from all of you that I meant in this writing. If you can’t do it to me, if not for me….then I have a huge favor—

Do it for THEM, at least! Do it for those that I LOVE AND WHO I WANTED TO PROTECT GENUINELY.

“Let no corrupt communication proceed out of your mouth, but that which is good to the use of edifying, that it may minister grace upon the hearers.”