I woke up to an avalanche of thoughts that I couldn’t stop.
I’ve finally decided to choose me this time.
I wanted to be genuinely happy, respected, loved and cared for~ and yet still wanting to truly find that small space of CHANCE from within, but I couldn’t find them.
I wanted to keep looking, to keep going…but I am seemingly blocked by all these unwarranted thoughts and questions.
I didn’t know how hard it is to choose self respect.
I didn’t know how difficult it is to truly want something for myself for the first time.
I didn’t know it can be this heavy of a burden to want PEACE for me.
Do I truly deserve to want these?
When I am so used to just give them.
Where do I even start getting used to the thought,
Hannah, you matter…
You deserve it.
I know I do….
But doing something for ME isn’t easy after all.
Until now, even with the desires of liberty and peace~ I wanted him who hurt me~
HAPPINESS. PEACE. LOVE. UNDERSTANDING.
That I couldn’t give anymore.
After all, I wasn’t enough.